My Dad was about the same as yours, the only thing he really wanted to do was have a beer and then disagree with everybody. I never had much of a relationship with him, tried a few times but it never worked out and like you I felt bad when he passed, but you know what it's a two way street and it takes an effort from both people. I don't beat myself up over not being aggresive enough because he wasn't interested enough about me or my family to do his part. So do I wish it could have been different..sure, but that's just the way it is sometime. Anyway sorry for your loss, don't hold any grudges and if you have a few good memories hang on to them, and if you have kids (I do) make sure they don't have those feelings when your gone!
Good luck with whatever you decide, that has to come from you. Rich
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