Just me venting, long and
Thank you all so much for your kind words, Prayers and friendship. It means more than you know to us. I don't have many friends in this world, mostly due to me not giving people a chance. But, I feel that I've gotten to know you guys over time on this forum and consider y'all my friends, whether ya like it or not.
So, Please bare with and forgive me for leaning on ya's one more time.
I know it's hard to figure out what to say during someone's time of crisis. So, no reply is necessary...Again, thanks guys!!!
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My Brother Mark, who was one year older than I, died @ at 4:08pm @ his home in Lehigh Acres Fl on 08/19/08. On my daughter Meghan's 17th Birthday. He died from Carbon Monoxide poisoning, while working on a car in his garage with the door closed. Apparently he had closed the door with the car running, because the rain from Fay was coming inside the garage. The Police Detective and the powers that be, ruled it an accidental death for a number of reasons, one of which was he had tools beside him on the floor where he was found by his roommate.
Yes it was a stupid thing to do. We ALL know that, including Mark. But, he also had been drinking which Obviously impaired his judgment IMO, and the Detectives opinion as well :nonod:.
My brother Mark didn't have a pot to pee in, but he'd do anything within his means for his friends, and Especially My family.
He was sometimes misunderstood but, a GREAT GUY none the less!! He Adored my wife and kids, and they him. He would do anything for them. He loved me as much as a man could love another.. and I him, although sometimes (recently) I didn't show it.:nonod:
Mark, really didn't care what anyone thought about him..Except for me. He always sought My approval, forgiveness, friendship and especially my Love.
He was a 42 year old man who chose to take on life without growing up.
He did what he had to do (legally) to get by and rarely ever complained.
He was always confident at whatever he was doing.
He was the epitome of a "jack of ALL trades".
My family is absolutely torn up over Mark's death. Meghan got a myspace msg from him the morning of her Birthday, on the day he died. She's broken hearted. She can't even look at me (she says on her myspace blog) cuz, she knows I'm a wreck inside and I'm trying to be strong for them, and it's killing her.
I've cried more over Mark's death than I ever have. I'm crying now, and yet I feel it'll never be enough.? I'm so sad that he's gone, and that I didn't get to tell him that I LOVE HIM.
..I feel so horribly sad that I COULDN'T HELP HIM.
My GOD....
